Fresh Start (again)

I'm going to try this yet again (yes for the 5th time now)...but this time for the right reasons.

1. I want to keep myself accountable
2. I want something to look back on to remind me how hard I worked when I reach my goal

Yes when, not if

3. Maybe someone out there will read about my journey and it will motivate them. That would be pretty awesome!


So I have tried and failed so many times that I got discouraged. I used every excuse in the book from I'm way too busy to I'll start Monday (ok never mind I'll start next Monday....)

I was on a roll, got scared and then gave up on me. I gained 15 pounds in 4 months! I haven't seen 230 since junior year of high school and it was depressing. So I ate to comfort myself. I would sneak fast food and throw the wrappers away so my fiance wouldn't know. It literally felt like I was cheating on him. Not in that way, but by constantly sneaking around. It was embarrassing and ended up getting to the point where I was short with him and quite frankly a bitch to be around.

2 weeks ago I told him the truth and it was a HUGE weight lifted off my shoulders. If he was disgusted he did a good job not showing it. He was supportive and glad I told him the truth, although he was very shocked. He told me he was also sick of how we weren't working out and eating out all the time. So for the first time ever we decided to do this together.

That is HUGE for me! I really needed motivation and it's so much easier to be on the same page. We decided to order P90X3 since it was only 30 minutes and had beginner modifications. We also agreed to eat clean together and to only have one cheat meal a week. For the first time in a LONG time I felt so motivated and believed this would finally be the time I would lose the weight.

My lowest weight was freshman year of college when I met Jeff- 189 pounds. Last week I weighed in at 231. Knowing I had gained 42 pounds was so depressing, but at least I was doing something about it instead of wallowing in self pity.

So this past week we got our suppliments and workout and started. We finished day 5 today and I am beyond proud! I love the program and I love that we are doing this together! I've been on track with my eating as well and feel so much better.

Every week I want to post something I'm proud of and something I can improve for the week ahead. I'm not worried about impressing anyone on my blog or if it's even interesting. I just want to write what I feel and if people read-great. If not that's fine too.

This week I'm proud of:

1. Working out every day (started Tuesday), even though I have had a cold.
2. Eating clean again and no fast food! In fact I'm not even tempted.
3. I have had shakeology for breakfast every day this week.


I can work on the following this week:

1. Trying to push myself a little more in the workouts
2. Blogging constantly
3. Not weighing myself daily


Tomorrow I'll post my weekly menu and weight update.

Glad to be back at it :)

Yay free hat :)